Walk to Remember


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and yesterday Dylan and I attended the P.S. Walk to Remember for the first time. The family friendly event is put on by P.S. Parent Support to honor and remember all children who have passed far too soon. The walk was short and very sweet through the […]

October 15, 2018

The Summer of IUI’s


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

It has been the summer of IUI’s. June’s IUI was unsuccessful, and the beginning of July we had our fifth IUI attempt with 5mg of Letrozole and 75iu of Gonal-F. It was like deja vu going through the motions around the Fourth of July again, as that was when we started any kind of medical […]

August 20, 2018

Loss is Loss


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

Triggers. People have triggers all the time in reaction to all kinds of difficulty. It could be a physical thing, place, a feeling, a person, or something someone says. I have them, lots of them. A few examples of things that trigger me after losing my daughter, Adeline, are: Crying babies Babies Baby sections in […]

July 25, 2018

Due Date Anniversary


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

June 12. A date engraved in my mind and heart. The day our little girl was due to arrive in this world. 2 years ago today.   Adeline was born on February 20 instead. Her body born and delivered into my arms Her soul born and delivered into Heaven. Our little Angel.   Today is […]

June 12, 2018

A Small Moment


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

Have you ever had apart of your story be minimized so badly that you feel yourself erupting? It is Thursday morning which mean I am in a classroom with 38 other aspiring teachers, sitting at cafeteria tables with benches that were not designed for the size of my rear end. I am working towards my […]

May 15, 2018

Angel Moms Stick Together


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

A supportive community that understands is crucial after losing a child. For many of us, the comfort comes from others who have been through similar experiences. And unfortunately, the bereaved parents community is ever growing. I woke with an emotional hangover. My eyes still felt heavy. My brain felt foggy. I felt exhausted. Emotional hangovers […]

March 6, 2018

Stillbirth Grief Two Years Later


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

I don’t have anything planned for today’s blog post so bear with me while I work through my emotions. Today, Adeline Angel is celebrating her second birthday from the heavens above and I am still earth-side constantly wondering what today would have been like had there been a different outcome. I stood in the kitchen […]

February 20, 2018

Trying to Conceive Roadmap


Infertility, Pregnancy & Infant Loss

I was getting one negative pregnancy test after another, turning hundreds of pages in books on fertility, trying to figure out what was wrong with my body and why my cycles were getting shorter and shorter, and convinced that I had missed my chance – had that ship sailed? I began to recognize how much […]

January 30, 2018