I’m Not Brave – I’m Simply A Parent

Blog, Pregnancy & Infant Loss

You keep telling me how brave I am. I know you don’t know what else to say to a loss parent. Sometimes I believe you. Sometimes I do feel brave. Sometimes you’re right.
You keep telling me how brave I am. I think I am too.

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NIAW 2020 // Advocate Spotlight with Alys, Lori, Sara and Jenell

Blog, Infertility

As NIAW comes to a close, I am once again amazed at the advocacy that is happening around the globe to break the stigma around infertility and empower people to speak out about something that 1 in 8 women struggle with (1 in 6 in Canada). There is a lot of loud voices and shaky […]

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NIAW 2020 // Advocate Spotlight with Maranda, Shauna and Amy

Blog, Infertility

You know what my favorite thing about #NIAW (National Infertility Awareness week) is? It is when someone shares out about their family building challenges and infertility for the first time. When someone says “I’ve been so scared of doing this for so long, but here it all is.” They let it out into the universe […]

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NIAW 2020 // Advocate Spotlight with Nicole, Kylee and Michelle

Blog, Infertility

We are halfway through NIAW (National Infertility Awareness Week) and I cannot say it enough, I am blown away by this community. No story is the same, yet each one is so important. No outcome is the same, yet each one holds so much value. RESOLVE, The National Infertility Association @resolveorg has asked that we […]

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Frozen Embryo Transfer Day


Infertility

On February 25th, in the middle of a record breaking snow storm in Seattle and just 5 days after Adeline’s 3rd heavenly birthday, it was Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) day! This is what I wrote after that incredible day: The day is here! It’s time to tuck an embryo safely inside, hopefully to stay for […]

July 18, 2019

New Year, New Hope


Infertility

January 1, 2019 – Retrieval Eve Happy New Year! We were up bright and early for my last blood draw before egg retrieval. We drove into Seattle first thing in the morning and we were in and out of the office, quick and easy. It’s our tradition to take a walk somewhere, anywhere, by the […]

January 3, 2019

Ending 2018 with IVF


Infertility

What a wild ride 2018 has been! We have endured the financial, physical, emotional and mental stress that comes with both child loss and infertility. We had many unsuccessful clomid rounds (the fertility gateway drug) and 4 failed IUI’s (Intrauterine insemination) and 2 cancelled IUI’s in this past year and have now arrived to IVF […]

December 31, 2018

Walk to Remember


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and yesterday Dylan and I attended the P.S. Walk to Remember for the first time. The family friendly event is put on by P.S. Parent Support to honor and remember all children who have passed far too soon. The walk was short and very sweet through the […]

October 15, 2018

The Summer of IUI’s


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

It has been the summer of IUI’s. June’s IUI was unsuccessful, and the beginning of July we had our fifth IUI attempt with 5mg of Letrozole and 75iu of Gonal-F. It was like deja vu going through the motions around the Fourth of July again, as that was when we started any kind of medical […]

August 20, 2018

Loss is Loss


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

Triggers. People have triggers all the time in reaction to all kinds of difficulty. It could be a physical thing, place, a feeling, a person, or something someone says. I have them, lots of them. A few examples of things that trigger me after losing my daughter, Adeline, are: Crying babies Babies Baby sections in […]

July 25, 2018

IUI 3 (Attempt 4)


Infertility

I thought for sure this IUI would be it. But to be honest, I think that for each one and every time CD1 (Cycle Day 1) shows up it is just as heartbreaking. We just found out IUI number 3 was yet again, unsuccessful. This was our third one, but fourth attempt; we had one […]

June 28, 2018

Due Date Anniversary


Pregnancy & Infant Loss

June 12. A date engraved in my mind and heart. The day our little girl was due to arrive in this world. 2 years ago today.   Adeline was born on February 20 instead. Her body born and delivered into my arms Her soul born and delivered into Heaven. Our little Angel.   Today is […]

June 12, 2018