Frozen Embryo Transfer Day


On February 25th, in the middle of a record breaking snow storm in Seattle and just 5 days after Adeline’s 3rd heavenly birthday, it was Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) day! This is what I wrote after that incredible day: The day is here! It’s time to tuck an embryo safely inside, hopefully to stay for […]

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New Year, New Hope


January 1, 2019 – Retrieval Eve Happy New Year! We were up bright and early for my last blood draw before egg retrieval. We drove into Seattle first thing in the morning and we were in and out of the office, quick and easy. It’s our tradition to take a walk somewhere, anywhere, by the […]

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Ending 2018 with IVF


What a wild ride 2018 has been! We have endured the financial, physical, emotional and mental stress that comes with both child loss and infertility. We had many unsuccessful clomid rounds (the fertility gateway drug) and 4 failed IUI’s (Intrauterine insemination) and 2 cancelled IUI’s in this past year and have now arrived to IVF […]

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A Baby Shower for our Miracle Baby

Blog, Pregnancy After Loss

A baby shower is not something we thought we would do. I have avoided going to them for the past three years because they are so triggers. I have walked completely around stores to avoid baby things. I have hidden pregnant people and new parents on my Facebook account because it is too hard to […]

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Due Date Anniversary

Pregnancy & Infant Loss

June 12. A date engraved in my mind and heart. The day our little girl was due to arrive in this world. 2 years ago today.   Adeline was born on February 20 instead. Her body born and delivered into my arms Her soul born and delivered into Heaven. Our little Angel.   Today is […]

June 12, 2018

A Small Moment

Pregnancy & Infant Loss

Have you ever had apart of your story be minimized so badly that you feel yourself erupting? It is Thursday morning which mean I am in a classroom with 38 other aspiring teachers, sitting at cafeteria tables with benches that were not designed for the size of my rear end. I am working towards my […]

May 15, 2018

The Fertility Journey Continues


As our fertility journey continues, it continues to have me strapped in. I hold my breath as I go up the rickety old wooden roller coaster, the chain clinking. Towards the top, a new round of medication starts, a treatment happens, HOPE happens. I reach the top, I throw my hands up in the air […]

April 18, 2018

Angel Moms Stick Together

Pregnancy & Infant Loss

A supportive community that understands is crucial after losing a child. For many of us, the comfort comes from others who have been through similar experiences. And unfortunately, the bereaved parents community is ever growing. I woke with an emotional hangover. My eyes still felt heavy. My brain felt foggy. I felt exhausted. Emotional hangovers […]

March 6, 2018

10 Ways to Survive the Two Week Wait


You would think after nearly two years of practicing how to not go crazy during a two week wait, that I would be getting pretty good at it, handling things pretty well, getting the hang of things, have things totally under control. But, ladies, that’s not the case here at all. After two years of […]

February 27, 2018

Stillbirth Grief Two Years Later

Pregnancy & Infant Loss

I don’t have anything planned for today’s blog post so bear with me while I work through my emotions. Today, Adeline Angel is celebrating her second birthday from the heavens above and I am still earth-side constantly wondering what today would have been like had there been a different outcome. I stood in the kitchen […]

February 20, 2018

How I Am Feeling After My First IUI


Trying to conceive after loss has been an emotional trek, yet somehow we keep finding the spirit to continue. I’m so glad that I sought out help from my doctors to help us along the way. After completing many tests and screenings, we dove in head first for our first IUI last week! Here is […]

February 13, 2018

Gearing up for IUI


I was so, so happy at my doctor office. My doctor and the nursing staff were the same staff that watched everything unfold with our daughter and they were so compassionate towards us about where we had been, where we were and where we were headed. However, there reached a point where I needed to […]

February 6, 2018

Trying to Conceive Roadmap

Infertility, Pregnancy & Infant Loss

I was getting one negative pregnancy test after another, turning hundreds of pages in books on fertility, trying to figure out what was wrong with my body and why my cycles were getting shorter and shorter, and convinced that I had missed my chance – had that ship sailed? I began to recognize how much […]

January 30, 2018

I’m a momma too

Pregnancy & Infant Loss

Maybe you are a momma that has experienced pregnancy or child loss. Maybe you are a father that has experienced this. Maybe you are a relative, a loved one, a colleague of someone who has experienced the unimaginable. Maybe you don’t know anyone who has experienced this and you are genuinely curious. Whatever it may […]

January 23, 2018