Loss, Infertility, Parenthood and Beyond
Dear Self, Happy 32nd Birthday! It’s pretty amazing, if you think about it. A lot has happened in this time, a lot of good, a lot of bad, a lot of joy, a lot of sadness, a lot of anger and a lot of forgiveness, and so much to learn and grow from. They say … View Post
Triggers. People have triggers all the time in reaction to all kinds of difficulty. It could be a physical thing, place, a feeling, a person, or something someone says. I have them, lots of them. A few examples of things that trigger me after losing my daughter, Adeline, are: Crying babies Babies Baby sections in … View Post
I thought for sure this IUI would be it. But to be honest, I think that for each one and every time CD1 (Cycle Day 1) shows up it is just as heartbreaking. We just found out IUI number 3 was yet again, unsuccessful. This was our third one, but fourth attempt; we had one … View Post
June 12. A date engraved in my mind and heart. The day our little girl was due to arrive in this world. 2 years ago today. Adeline was born on February 20 instead. Her body born and delivered into my arms Her soul born and delivered into Heaven. Our little Angel. Today is … View Post
Have you ever had apart of your story be minimized so badly that you feel yourself erupting? It is Thursday morning which mean I am in a classroom with 38 other aspiring teachers, sitting at cafeteria tables with benches that were not designed for the size of my rear end. I am working towards my … View Post
As our fertility journey continues, it continues to have me strapped in. I hold my breath as I go up the rickety old wooden roller coaster, the chain clinking. Towards the top, a new round of medication starts, a treatment happens, HOPE happens. I reach the top, I throw my hands up in the air … View Post
A supportive community that understands is crucial after losing a child. For many of us, the comfort comes from others who have been through similar experiences. And unfortunately, the bereaved parents community is ever growing. I woke with an emotional hangover. My eyes still felt heavy. My brain felt foggy. I felt exhausted. Emotional hangovers … View Post
You would think after nearly two years of practicing how to not go crazy during a two week wait, that I would be getting pretty good at it, handling things pretty well, getting the hang of things, have things totally under control. But, ladies, that’s not the case here at all. After two years of … View Post
I don’t have anything planned for today’s blog post so bear with me while I work through my emotions. Today, Adeline Angel is celebrating her second birthday from the heavens above and I am still earth-side constantly wondering what today would have been like had there been a different outcome. I stood in the kitchen … View Post
Trying to conceive after loss has been an emotional trek, yet somehow we keep finding the spirit to continue. I’m so glad that I sought out help from my doctors to help us along the way. After completing many tests and screenings, we dove in head first for our first IUI last week! Here is … View Post
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