October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and yesterday Dylan and I attended the P.S. Walk to Remember for the first time. The family friendly event is put on by P.S. Parent Support to honor and remember all children who have passed far too soon. The walk was short and very sweet through the […]
Summer of 2018 has otherwise been known as the summer of IUI’s in this household. My husband started a new job, with new benefits that cover a portion of IUI’s and I was working early shifts with my afternoons open. My husband graduated from his MBA program, and I had the summer off from my […]
It has been the summer of IUI’s. June’s IUI was unsuccessful, and the beginning of July we had our fifth IUI attempt with 5mg of Letrozole and 75iu of Gonal-F. It was like deja vu going through the motions around the Fourth of July again, as that was when we started any kind of medical […]
Dear Self, Happy 32nd Birthday! It’s pretty amazing, if you think about it. A lot has happened in this time, a lot of good, a lot of bad, a lot of joy, a lot of sadness, a lot of anger and a lot of forgiveness, and so much to learn and grow from. They say […]
Triggers. People have triggers all the time in reaction to all kinds of difficulty. It could be a physical thing, place, a feeling, a person, or something someone says. I have them, lots of them. A few examples of things that trigger me after losing my daughter, Adeline, are: Crying babies Babies Baby sections in […]
I thought for sure this IUI would be it. But to be honest, I think that for each one and every time CD1 (Cycle Day 1) shows up it is just as heartbreaking. We just found out IUI number 3 was yet again, unsuccessful. This was our third one, but fourth attempt; we had one […]
June 12. A date engraved in my mind and heart. The day our little girl was due to arrive in this world. 2 years ago today. Adeline was born on February 20 instead. Her body born and delivered into my arms Her soul born and delivered into Heaven. Our little Angel. Today is […]
Have you ever had apart of your story be minimized so badly that you feel yourself erupting? It is Thursday morning which mean I am in a classroom with 38 other aspiring teachers, sitting at cafeteria tables with benches that were not designed for the size of my rear end. I am working towards my […]
As our fertility journey continues, it continues to have me strapped in. I hold my breath as I go up the rickety old wooden roller coaster, the chain clinking. Towards the top, a new round of medication starts, a treatment happens, HOPE happens. I reach the top, I throw my hands up in the air […]
A supportive community that understands is crucial after losing a child. For many of us, the comfort comes from others who have been through similar experiences. And unfortunately, the bereaved parents community is ever growing. I woke with an emotional hangover. My eyes still felt heavy. My brain felt foggy. I felt exhausted. Emotional hangovers […]
